Some days are so tough. I never stop working. I never stop trying to put things back together. It’s exhausting. Some days it feels impossible.
I shouldn’t even be in this situation. Again.
Every time people get away with abuse it shatters the victim’s life.
I’ve had to repair, rebuild too many times.
And I had the tools and the knowledge to stop the violent man before most of the violence. Ken had control of my living situation so he stopped all my efforts to not be abused. I have no doubt he helped the violent man.
The destruction to my life was so bad. This is my home. I can’t even begin to live the way I want yet. I can’t begin to look at moving forward to fix up my home yet.
I have a long road of repairs yo every area of my life before I can even think of normalcy.
I do deserve justice. The violent man and his minions deserve to face consequences.
I’m not even safe in my home as long as these men can be near me and my home. There are so many provable reasons why I should have restraining orders against these men. There is no limit to the violence they have been, and are, willing to commit.
The entire property line is a dangerous place, nails, breaking boards from the mass of construction debris.
I have so many reasons to sue everyone involved.
This country is a disgrace for protecting such violent people. It should not be so difficult to get legal help to get justice. This is years of violence, abuse, and destruction. I’ve had my liberty and safety removed from me while I am in my home.
So even though I am working constantly to rebuild my life it’s hard to keep going some days.
I want to have a home that feels safe and like me. All I can do is try to keep safe while I repair until by a miracle I get to move forward
I ran into a coyote yesterday with my little Great Dane friend. I thought I put her picture in my blog, but I must have been very tired!
I’ve seen her in the same area a couple of times. Once with a hurt back foot. She must have babies somewhere there because it’s a fairly high traffic part of the park.
She stopped right in front of us and I almost didn’t see her while watching my step! I called after a man walking by and we made some loud chat so she backed off.
She did follow for a while. She did not want that Great Dane there😂
No problem. Plenty of other places for a walk❤️
I wish they didn’t use those bait traps at Lakeview. She is probably catching all sorts of rodents around there at night. Probably poisoned ones at times. It’s great that the coyotes are welcomed there! If those boxes were gone it would be even better.
Yikes. That’s a line from a movie about murderous criminals. It’s wild that anyone would use a line like that in their day to day life. Like ‘greed is good’. Also a line from unsavory characters.
I would not be able to calculate how many times my dad has said that or ‘business comes first’. It would be as much, or more, than the number of cherubs my mother had around her home. One might as well try to count the number of stars in the sky.
Wow, I feel too many emotions just writing that.
I think about the people they are and wonder how I survived at all.
Any sign of who I am as a person was, and is, immediately squashed, suppressed, shamed, and bullied right away.
I was a constant disappointment for not being replicas of them. So it’s you’re just like your mother/father.
I was shamed out of anything that showed a bit of me so much that I never knew who that was. Im just starting to now. at 58. So much life not lived. So many things I could have done or been.
I am fighting for the space and time to get to be this person. Why does it still have to be so hard?
I’m still surrounded by people trying to bully and abuse me and my home. I still have to spend so much of my time and energy to protecting ex animals that live around here. I have to constantly protect myself while I am in my home.
I’ve been made to feel unsafe in my home and unsafe from my neighbors. And I will never forgive any of these people who have been involved in harassing me or harming animals.
The men next door have yet to face any real consequences for injuring and killing multiple cats. They have not had to pay for multiple crimes against me and my property.
I still hope and wish to get legal help to recover financial losses and to be free of further harm by these people.
I won’t forgive. That’s for sure. I will never trust anyone in this neighborhood. I will never have faith in anyone from the city of CH. They have let these men get away with a massive list of crimes and destruction to my life and my business. They have helped him harass me at times and I won’t ever forget that or trust them.
What I can say about me is that I have never and will never be like them.
I would never cause harm or damage. I have never retaliated in kind. Never caused destruction of property, harmed an animal, slandered, stolen, or any of the despicable and illegal things these people have done to me.
I will always be better than that. Better than them.
I reached out for help. Wrote letters, provided proof, pictures, and complete honesty.
I asked neighbors to help me and to stand up with me against the violence towards me and the animals. I will never forgive these neighbors.
I will continue to speak out for every animal around me. I will protect them as best as I can. Obviously alone here. I will never stoop down to the level of behavior I have endured from others here and now, and past abusers.
I have love for nature. That’s who I am. This earth is magically beautiful! Even if all I can do in this life is protect the living things around my home. That’s what I will do. Fiercely and unconditionally.
That’s a rhetorical question. lol. History is filled with the consequences of eliminating outdoor cats.
Lately Ive been hearing more people spreading their loathing of stray and feral cats. Calling for everything from shoving them all into overcrowded shelters all the way to violent acts to eliminate them.
And with the city looking at killing deer and whatever they are planning for lost and stray dogs I have thoughts and concerns.
Aside from how insane it is to hate an animal like some people hate cats…🙄I don’t want to even think about these people. It’s weird to think that way about an animal. It’s just weird. Animals are animals, they are all perfect just as they are.
It is proven without a doubt that cats aren’t causing bird extinctions. Or any loss of wildlife. No neighborhood animal here is. Period. It’s not debatable or a matter of opinion. Its people. People are killing birds. People are killing birds and using cats as scapegoats instead of being willing to change. Cats are bad at catching birds. They are mousers by nature.
People using lawn treatments and over landscaping all of which kills bird’s food. No insects, no caterpillars for their babies. If they find food it’s often poisoned by people. Cats aren’t poisoning anything.
People destroy habitats. Unnecessary building, data centers, even cutting down that tree you don’t want there. No brush piles, no leaf piles, no places to nest or winter. That’s people doing all of that. Not cats.
Bait traps. Poisoning small rodents moves throughout the entire ecosystem. Yes, it reaches birds. cats aren’t using bait traps.
Scapegoating cats for the actions of people is irresponsible. Stop the destructive habits of people. And birds will flourish again.
What is going to happen if cat hating people convince CH city hall to take out the cats?
Besides being horrific, traumatic, and cruel. It would be an extremely difficult, if not futile, task. The vacuum effect is real.
If for some reason they were to succeed at eliminating outdoor cats, the city’s already healthy rodent population will BOOM!
Maybe coyotes will expand their territories into all the neighborhoods in the absence of cats. They are the next step up rodent hunters after cats and raptors and when one predator leaves another moves in. The coyotes definitely bring high risk of rabies and all sorts of stuff. I’m not opposed to coyotes. They are useful and part of the beautiful animal kingdom.❤️ they also have a right to exist. It’s better to have the cats for rodent control in most neighborhoods though. They rarely get, or spread, things like rabies. And coyotes can have the space they need in the parks.
CH isn’t going to invest in rabies vaccines for any animal. They’ll just kill off coyotes.
And we will still have mice and rats. More and more of them.
I’m not going to go through the list of repercussions for all the animal killing the city could approve. Any of it is ludicrous. None of it solves any problem.
We need outdoor cats. We need all of our animal crews!!
They could support the health and well being of community cats. Easy access tnr, vaccinations, and healthcare. These would control populations and stabilize colonies. Protective laws for community cat caregivers who give their time and money selflessly. Enforcement of laws that protect the animals and caregivers.
In return we get to live with adorable and reliable rodent control from sweet little felines.
We can have all of our night crews cleaning up the more undesirable insects and scraps while we sleep. We just need to spread the word about how lucky we are to have these animals looking out for our city.
And those overcrowded shelters? They are essential for emergency situations. But with tnr and proper care of community cats, most cats don’t need to be in shelters. They can live long, healthy lives with help from people and neighborhoods. Building a trusting relationship with them will lead many to find indoor homes! It’s a win all the way around.
That shelter room can be for caring for lost and stray dogs. Dogs can’t thrive outdoors with care like cats can. They are perpetual toddlers. Give the shelters more room for properly housing dogs in need.
Maybe let go of this ridiculous overdone landscaping and accept the services of our wonderful animal friends. Seriously, the animals are much more pleasant than the constant noise of the landscaping which IS killing the birds.
Did the city of Cleveland Heights already kill her?
Its been only a couple of days since they confirmed they were going ahead with killing the few deer around. I haven’t seen her.
She is usually here at some point every day. She doesn’t come near me. And I would never try to approach her. She was always happy to be here though. She would bounce over to my yard with such happiness ❤️ not to see me, but she knew I wouldn’t chase her away. She could bounce right past me and graze to her hearts content. Just beautiful.
If I have something I don’t want animals eating I have rolls of chicken wire and posts. Anything open is for eating.
Plants are meant to be food. Plants and insects are the foundations that support life, good soil, and a clean world.
It is always a joy to see her, and all wildlife, enjoying what my little place can provide.
But she may be gone already.
I’ve lived in this city for over 30 years. Before that, as a Chagrin Falls teen, I’d come here with friends to hang out.
CH had always been filled with wildlife. When my children were young we walked all over the place. Any day could be used to watch the life outside and study animal behavior, bugs, birds. We homeschooled for years with the CH co-op so we had time to see how much was living around us.
I’ve been a dog walker now for over 14 years. I know the streets around. It’s know what times to watch for other animals around.
It’s not a problem anymore though.
No matter where I am walking there is a disturbing lack of wildlife, insects, and birds. The yards and streets are emptied of the all the lives that used to flourish here.
The deer. There have been years where deer were hanging out on every block, in every field, and crossing streets all over as I’d drive from dog to dog.
It’s been rare this year to see more than the beautiful girl at my house.
The city had the option to sterilize the few around this year and keep the numbers low.
They could have put in the work to secure anything they felt the deer are destroying. They could have given those people who value pristine plants over lives the tools and information to make their home unfriendly to animals.
Instead they chose killing.
I emailed them. I’m sure others who want to preserve life here did too.
Some of the council members said they prefer sterilization. Some of them wrote back giving me some hope that their more careless council members would not get the chance to murder.
I feel once again betrayed by this city administration.
And I am very concerned about the future of all of the animals in Cleveland Heights now.
What species is the next ‘nuisance’ to be eliminated?
I’ve seen an increase in people hating certain animals lately.
Skunks, cats, groundhogs, raccoons, geese…
Every animal in our city has a job and a purpose.
The skunks and opossums provide incredible pest control. They work hard all through the night. Aerating the soil as they work. groundhogs provide valuable aeration as well. And create further habitats for the other animals. Raccoons are terrific, and adorable, garbage collectors. All those people calling to eradicate outdoor cats need to read some serious history. The amount of suffering every culture suffers that has done so is well documented. And Cleveland Heights has enough mice and rats even with our outdoor cats.
For the record: people killing of insects and trees are killing the birds. Not cats! Geez, these people are trying to start a plague!
The list of the jobs our wildlife do for us is vast. And it’s ignored.
This is definitely another rant. It’s my blog so I get to rant.
I’m going to miss this little die if she’s really gone. I know immever going to stop looking up and down the street for her.
Wherever she is now I love her. I’m honored to have given her a space she knew she belonged.
My little moonflowers are always getting into fights. There’s three black kitties that come around to say hi. I call them moonflowers. 🐈⬛🐈⬛🐈⬛
I can’t tell them apart until they interact with me. One is very friendly, one is very skittish, the other is somewhere in between. They are all perfect little boys.
One of those days that I managed to get a long list of things done other than the animal care from 5-8. I’m not done cleaning and setting things up for the morning. So it’ll be awhile before I get off my feet.
I miss the sun rising early already. It makes it easier to get moving. I’ve got 1 1/2 – 2 hours of caring for these little ones around here before I leave to pick up pups. All day dog walking and playing with them. Then night time is 2-4 hours of work and clean up depending on who’s here and mess from the day. There’s playing during this all if my dog friends are here. Then cozy cuddling with my animal friends🥰
I’m not complaining about it. I wish I had more money to make things a bit easier! But it’s what I’ve been given to do and I love them with all of my heart❤️❤️
I would be nice to have better neighbors too, of course! That will also make things easier. (I’m sure it will happen someday)
Other chores are done today too!
I got most of that large bill paid. And I think I have a payment plan set up? That windfall that astrologers say are in the readings hasn’t shown up in my account yet. It would be great to have that paid in full!
If things are quiet for a bit. I mean no surprise abuse, attacks, or harassment. I could be on track to do a full grocery shopping trip🤞
Those attacks always end up meaning I have to spend money or give up some time. 😠
That’s my goal. Grocery shopping. I want run up to Trader Joe’s. And Whole Foods. There’s a seasonal produce shop nearby.
What a stupid time to be living in where anyone hopes for a windfall to go grocery shopping. And it’s so many people living like this.
I’m tired and hungry so I’m gonna be cranky about it.
I’ll say up front it’s not all men. Yesterday a neighbor from a few doors down was standing in front of my house talking on the phone. I looked outside and three cats had gathered behind him to listen. This is a safe person. They felt it and he let them just watch without reacting. I feel bed for probably interrupting his call. It’s rare for the animals here to experience kindness from men. So I mentioned how nice it was to see them happy near him.
So it’s not all men. So many men love animals and nature. I follow many men and women who care for animals.
It seems all the violent men are involved with the house next door. There must be a list somewhere for short term rentals. Only violent, destructive, or abusive people allowed to rent. I was leaving this morning and heard yet another grown man screaming and lunging at a tiny cat. Disgusting.
Any man who cannot be kind to an animal is disgusting. I feel bad for their two large dogs. They seem bored. So they bark and one of these grown men barks at them out the door. That’s all I hear from the dogs.
I talk to the dogs when I’m outside talking to the animals, birds, trees, and plants. They quiet down when I talk to them.
They haven’t turned off their bug zapper since, I think, before August. That last lightening bug flying that way will haunt me forever. I tried to divert it. Their season is mostly over I think. 🤔 m hoping there are enough baby lightening bugs in my yard for more next year.
Nothing will be mowed, cut, or removed from my yard. It’s a bit wild to preserve life now. And it will stay that way!
There was a weird smell in the backyard. There’s always lots of smells because I welcome all animals😂 I don’t want to leave it though in case they are spraying coyote urine, or something unnecessary. Nothing like that is a deterrent. The raccoons and skunks are out there right now. But there are coyotes around and about. None have been spotted in this area as far as I know and it’s not the best neighborhood for them. So I sprayed my fence board with a little thyme and cinnamon. Should mask it enough if that’s what I smelled.
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I don’t know how often these men are abusive to the cats and animals. It’s a short term rental so I can try to hope for a better couple next time 🤷♀️
I’m sick of having to watch for violent acts toward everything, including me, from that house. Everyone who goes through that place seems determined to kill and remove all life from the area.
Praying for justice
I will always welcome life at my home. There’s a pretty doe that loves snacking on everything here. I have to remember to look up if all the bird seed she gets into is ok for her. I love them all and they can stay❤️
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