Author: JM

A couple that lives down the street from me walked by while i was unloading stuff from my car.

They were a smiley and said ‘hi’ as if we were supposed to exchange pleasantries like we used to.

The audacity to think that I should greet them kindly knowing that they are willing to completely ignore the violence I’ve been suffering at my home. It’s clear and obvious to the world that there is still ongoing harassment. The continual efforts of the nonresident violent man next door to eradicate all living things around the area is clear, open, and undeniable.

I walked up and down the street talking to my neighbors, including this couple. With rashes and unexplainable burns on my arms and pictures of the damage and harmful traps set up to harm wildlife. I had pictures of the cats I witnessed being killed by them. I asked everyone to help me find a way to stop the violence. I asked people to help me protect the neighborhood animals.

I went on next door looking for help.

This couple are just two of all of them that don’t give a fuck. Nothing. Not even a check in to ask if things are still a problem. No support of a vulnerable woman and helpless animals.

20-30 years ago was different here in CH. community existed. People would have helped and I would have gladly helped another.

I’m will never forgive any of these people for letting animal abuse continue here.

People on Nextdoor actually said things like “nobody is going to risk their safety for you”, “don’t bother people”, “maybe there’s something wrong with you for not letting him do what he wants”

A woman down the street told me I was being a bad person for asking people for help. She actually said I am a bad person for talking about something happening to me to other people!

She is an absolute smug piece of garbage. With issue signs on her lawn. But don’t you dare ask for support. Garbage people.

Through this I have learned that we are destined to fail.

Masses of people posting online that we have to pull together! Community will save us all!

Bullshit. There is no community anymore. It’s dead. It’s gone. I am sure people posting these things don’t even know what it means.

And I’m done with it now too. They can all go rot in hell. Everyone who has had a part of the pain I have been through and the loss of life I’ve mourned alone. Everyone who I’ve told or has known and has ignored the suffering. All of you can fuck off to hell.

The animals still come to my home. They know I am a safe person with a safe space for them. I wish I could tell them how sad I am that the people around us do not love them like I do.

Even though I’m surrounded by the worst kinds of people I will never abandon the wildlife that wants to be here.

Teddy likes to do a lot of lounging on his walks. Enjoy his surroundings ❤️

Some days are so tough. I never stop working. I never stop trying to put things back together. It’s exhausting. Some days it feels impossible.

I shouldn’t even be in this situation. Again.

Every time people get away with abuse it shatters the victim’s life.

I’ve had to repair, rebuild too many times.

And I had the tools and the knowledge to stop the violent man before most of the violence. Ken had control of my living situation so he stopped all my efforts to not be abused. I have no doubt he helped the violent man.

The destruction to my life was so bad. This is my home. I can’t even begin to live the way I want yet. I can’t begin to look at moving forward to fix up my home yet.

I have a long road of repairs yo every area of my life before I can even think of normalcy.

I do deserve justice. The violent man and his minions deserve to face consequences.

I’m not even safe in my home as long as these men can be near me and my home. There are so many provable reasons why I should have restraining orders against these men. There is no limit to the violence they have been, and are, willing to commit.

The entire property line is a dangerous place, nails, breaking boards from the mass of construction debris.

I have so many reasons to sue everyone involved.

This country is a disgrace for protecting such violent people. It should not be so difficult to get legal help to get justice. This is years of violence, abuse, and destruction. I’ve had my liberty and safety removed from me while I am in my home.

So even though I am working constantly to rebuild my life it’s hard to keep going some days.

I want to have a home that feels safe and like me. All I can do is try to keep safe while I repair until by a miracle I get to move forward

I ran into a coyote yesterday with my little Great Dane friend. I thought I put her picture in my blog, but I must have been very tired!

I’ve seen her in the same area a couple of times. Once with a hurt back foot. She must have babies somewhere there because it’s a fairly high traffic part of the park.

She stopped right in front of us and I almost didn’t see her while watching my step! I called after a man walking by and we made some loud chat so she backed off.

She did follow for a while. She did not want that Great Dane there😂

No problem. Plenty of other places for a walk❤️

I wish they didn’t use those bait traps at Lakeview. She is probably catching all sorts of rodents around there at night. Probably poisoned ones at times. It’s great that the coyotes are welcomed there! If those boxes were gone it would be even better.

Yikes. That’s a line from a movie about murderous criminals. It’s wild that anyone would use a line like that in their day to day life. Like ‘greed is good’. Also a line from unsavory characters.

I would not be able to calculate how many times my dad has said that or ‘business comes first’. It would be as much, or more, than the number of cherubs my mother had around her home. One might as well try to count the number of stars in the sky.

Wow, I feel too many emotions just writing that.

I think about the people they are and wonder how I survived at all.

Any sign of who I am as a person was, and is, immediately squashed, suppressed, shamed, and bullied right away.

I was a constant disappointment for not being replicas of them. So it’s you’re just like your mother/father.

I was shamed out of anything that showed a bit of me so much that I never knew who that was. Im just starting to now. at 58. So much life not lived. So many things I could have done or been.

I am fighting for the space and time to get to be this person. Why does it still have to be so hard?

I’m still surrounded by people trying to bully and abuse me and my home. I still have to spend so much of my time and energy to protecting ex animals that live around here. I have to constantly protect myself while I am in my home.

I’ve been made to feel unsafe in my home and unsafe from my neighbors. And I will never forgive any of these people who have been involved in harassing me or harming animals.

The men next door have yet to face any real consequences for injuring and killing multiple cats. They have not had to pay for multiple crimes against me and my property.

I still hope and wish to get legal help to recover financial losses and to be free of further harm by these people.

I won’t forgive. That’s for sure. I will never trust anyone in this neighborhood. I will never have faith in anyone from the city of CH. They have let these men get away with a massive list of crimes and destruction to my life and my business. They have helped him harass me at times and I won’t ever forget that or trust them.

What I can say about me is that I have never and will never be like them.

I would never cause harm or damage. I have never retaliated in kind. Never caused destruction of property, harmed an animal, slandered, stolen, or any of the despicable and illegal things these people have done to me.

I will always be better than that. Better than them.

I reached out for help. Wrote letters, provided proof, pictures, and complete honesty.

I asked neighbors to help me and to stand up with me against the violence towards me and the animals. I will never forgive these neighbors.

I will continue to speak out for every animal around me. I will protect them as best as I can. Obviously alone here. I will never stoop down to the level of behavior I have endured from others here and now, and past abusers.

I have love for nature. That’s who I am. This earth is magically beautiful! Even if all I can do in this life is protect the living things around my home. That’s what I will do. Fiercely and unconditionally.

That’s a rhetorical question. lol. History is filled with the consequences of eliminating outdoor cats.

Lately Ive been hearing more people spreading their loathing of stray and feral cats. Calling for everything from shoving them all into overcrowded shelters all the way to violent acts to eliminate them.

And with the city looking at killing deer and whatever they are planning for lost and stray dogs I have thoughts and concerns.

Aside from how insane it is to hate an animal like some people hate cats…🙄I don’t want to even think about these people. It’s weird to think that way about an animal. It’s just weird. Animals are animals, they are all perfect just as they are.

It is proven without a doubt that cats aren’t causing bird extinctions. Or any loss of wildlife. No neighborhood animal here is. Period. It’s not debatable or a matter of opinion. Its people. People are killing birds. People are killing birds and using cats as scapegoats instead of being willing to change. Cats are bad at catching birds. They are mousers by nature.

People using lawn treatments and over landscaping all of which kills bird’s food. No insects, no caterpillars for their babies. If they find food it’s often poisoned by people. Cats aren’t poisoning anything.

People destroy habitats. Unnecessary building, data centers, even cutting down that tree you don’t want there. No brush piles, no leaf piles, no places to nest or winter. That’s people doing all of that. Not cats.

Bait traps. Poisoning small rodents moves throughout the entire ecosystem. Yes, it reaches birds. cats aren’t using bait traps.

Scapegoating cats for the actions of people is irresponsible. Stop the destructive habits of people. And birds will flourish again.

What is going to happen if cat hating people convince CH city hall to take out the cats?

Besides being horrific, traumatic, and cruel. It would be an extremely difficult, if not futile, task. The vacuum effect is real.

If for some reason they were to succeed at eliminating outdoor cats, the city’s already healthy rodent population will BOOM!

Maybe coyotes will expand their territories into all the neighborhoods in the absence of cats. They are the next step up rodent hunters after cats and raptors and when one predator leaves another moves in. The coyotes definitely bring high risk of rabies and all sorts of stuff. I’m not opposed to coyotes. They are useful and part of the beautiful animal kingdom.❤️ they also have a right to exist. It’s better to have the cats for rodent control in most neighborhoods though. They rarely get, or spread, things like rabies. And coyotes can have the space they need in the parks.

CH isn’t going to invest in rabies vaccines for any animal. They’ll just kill off coyotes.

And we will still have mice and rats. More and more of them.

I’m not going to go through the list of repercussions for all the animal killing the city could approve. Any of it is ludicrous. None of it solves any problem.

We need outdoor cats. We need all of our animal crews!!

They could support the health and well being of community cats. Easy access tnr, vaccinations, and healthcare. These would control populations and stabilize colonies. Protective laws for community cat caregivers who give their time and money selflessly. Enforcement of laws that protect the animals and caregivers.

In return we get to live with adorable and reliable rodent control from sweet little felines.

We can have all of our night crews cleaning up the more undesirable insects and scraps while we sleep. We just need to spread the word about how lucky we are to have these animals looking out for our city.

And those overcrowded shelters? They are essential for emergency situations. But with tnr and proper care of community cats, most cats don’t need to be in shelters. They can live long, healthy lives with help from people and neighborhoods. Building a trusting relationship with them will lead many to find indoor homes! It’s a win all the way around.

That shelter room can be for caring for lost and stray dogs. Dogs can’t thrive outdoors with care like cats can. They are perpetual toddlers. Give the shelters more room for properly housing dogs in need.

Maybe let go of this ridiculous overdone landscaping and accept the services of our wonderful animal friends. Seriously, the animals are much more pleasant than the constant noise of the landscaping which IS killing the birds.

Love this article about Disneys cat crew:

https://www.facebook.com/share/r/19PvXAYhDU/?mibextid=wwXIfr

Did the city of Cleveland Heights already kill her?

Its been only a couple of days since they confirmed they were going ahead with killing the few deer around. I haven’t seen her.

She is usually here at some point every day. She doesn’t come near me. And I would never try to approach her. She was always happy to be here though. She would bounce over to my yard with such happiness ❤️ not to see me, but she knew I wouldn’t chase her away. She could bounce right past me and graze to her hearts content. Just beautiful.

If I have something I don’t want animals eating I have rolls of chicken wire and posts. Anything open is for eating.

Plants are meant to be food. Plants and insects are the foundations that support life, good soil, and a clean world.

It is always a joy to see her, and all wildlife, enjoying what my little place can provide.

But she may be gone already.

I’ve lived in this city for over 30 years. Before that, as a Chagrin Falls teen, I’d come here with friends to hang out.

CH had always been filled with wildlife. When my children were young we walked all over the place. Any day could be used to watch the life outside and study animal behavior, bugs, birds. We homeschooled for years with the CH co-op so we had time to see how much was living around us.

I’ve been a dog walker now for over 14 years. I know the streets around. It’s know what times to watch for other animals around.

It’s not a problem anymore though.

No matter where I am walking there is a disturbing lack of wildlife, insects, and birds. The yards and streets are emptied of the all the lives that used to flourish here.

The deer. There have been years where deer were hanging out on every block, in every field, and crossing streets all over as I’d drive from dog to dog.

It’s been rare this year to see more than the beautiful girl at my house.

The city had the option to sterilize the few around this year and keep the numbers low.

They could have put in the work to secure anything they felt the deer are destroying. They could have given those people who value pristine plants over lives the tools and information to make their home unfriendly to animals.

Instead they chose killing.

I emailed them. I’m sure others who want to preserve life here did too.

Some of the council members said they prefer sterilization. Some of them wrote back giving me some hope that their more careless council members would not get the chance to murder.

I feel once again betrayed by this city administration.

And I am very concerned about the future of all of the animals in Cleveland Heights now.

What species is the next ‘nuisance’ to be eliminated?

I’ve seen an increase in people hating certain animals lately.

Skunks, cats, groundhogs, raccoons, geese…

Every animal in our city has a job and a purpose.

The skunks and opossums provide incredible pest control. They work hard all through the night. Aerating the soil as they work. groundhogs provide valuable aeration as well. And create further habitats for the other animals. Raccoons are terrific, and adorable, garbage collectors. All those people calling to eradicate outdoor cats need to read some serious history. The amount of suffering every culture suffers that has done so is well documented. And Cleveland Heights has enough mice and rats even with our outdoor cats.

For the record: people killing of insects and trees are killing the birds. Not cats! Geez, these people are trying to start a plague!

The list of the jobs our wildlife do for us is vast. And it’s ignored.

This is definitely another rant. It’s my blog so I get to rant.

I’m going to miss this little die if she’s really gone. I know immever going to stop looking up and down the street for her.

Wherever she is now I love her. I’m honored to have given her a space she knew she belonged.

❤️❤️

My little moonflowers are always getting into fights. There’s three black kitties that come around to say hi. I call them moonflowers. 🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛🐈‍⬛

I can’t tell them apart until they interact with me. One is very friendly, one is very skittish, the other is somewhere in between. They are all perfect little boys.

I can’t wait until I can get them all neutered