Another Monday journal entry

I’m at this point right now where I need to reach all of those past traumas and voice them.

The violent man and the worthless people who follow him are still a constant threat to me and the animals that visit my home. Multiple cats have been killed and injured. I’ve reported it everywhere. People willing to do this are just violent at their core. Not to mention the incident of these men physically shoving me aside, on my property, to cut down my plants. Yes, I’ve reported this many times too. Nothing is ever done. I’m waiting for the state to actually investigate the multiple felonies of the cat lives lost, abuse, theft, destruction….

So it’s all going out publicly. Even if no one ever responds. No matter how few people read my journal. I’m not internalizing the pain. And I’m not letting these things just disappear with me or with my solitude.

I’m sick to death of people thinking they can have fun abusing a woman because they are sure they can get away with it. And I am beyond disgusted with the level of violence I have witnessed at my home in front of isolationist neighbors. I am shocked by the level of casual animal abuse around me right now. Cleveland Heights is failing. Safety is gone. Community is gone. Green spaces, wildlife, and trees are disappearing. They are in the path to be a parking lot suburb filled with violent people.

I’ll have more to say to them soon.

And I will never forgive all of the neighbors around me who ignored my pleas for help and continue to turn their backs on the violence happening in their neighborhood.

All of those ‘family’ members who have ignored my existence, hurt me, or ignored the abuse right in front of them will hopefully get whatever is karmically theirs to endure someday.

And I don’t care if anyone finds it petty, or whatever. I have sent links to my blog page to some of these ‘family’ members. I hope you all get to understand that I have begged to be treated as a human for most of my life. As soon as I realized that the neglect and abuse was not normal. And I have been punished for trying to be accepted. And I have been punished for being the daughter of a woman they hate.

I wanted love from these people for so long. I wasted so much of my life craving love from a soulless family.

There’s all of that –

Other little things have come up during the afternoon.🙄

So I haven’t quite gotten to my list yet. Stuff got done though.

The old pups I’m watching today are hanging out🐶🐶 it’s too hot for them again but we are together❤️❤️

I think I feel more exhausted today than I feel stressed. Hoping to get everything done early and turn in early.

Here’s a cat for happy thoughts